*Dear 16-year-old Nikki*

*inspired by Ped's efforts to follow the leader*

Dear Nikki,

Hanggang ngayon eh tingin mo pa din sa sarili mo eh ugly duckling ka. Hindi ka na ba naka-get-over sa idea na hindi naman? Sabagay, in a while eh hindi mo na iisipin yun, pero in some ways eh level-headed ka pa din. Maganda yon. Basta tama lang ang confidence level mo.

Mag-get-over ka na sa kanya. Hindi naman magiging kayo maski ilang beses pa kayo magkita, ilang beses kayo mag-usap and ilang beses ka pa magpakabiba eh hindi talaga magiging kayo. Wake up. Atenista nga, kaengot-engot naman. Magkakaroon ka din ng bf. Mas maliit nga lang sa'yo. Hahaha, true yun girl, ayaw mo maniwala eh di wag! Maysa epal, maysa pa-bibo din pero malalaglag ka talaga sa kanya.

Surprise, surprise. Hindi naman kayo magtatagal. (Naisip mo siguro, napakabrutal ko. Well, ako ikaw. Wag ka na magreklamo) Seryoso, hindi talaga. Idedeny mo lahat-lahat ng signs dahil para sayo eh siya na si "trulab". Yuck ha. HINDI. Hindi ka din naman magiging old maid, day.

May super gwapo't super tingting na classmate ka pagdating mo ng junior year. Magiging prom partner (hindi date ha, partner lang talaga) mo pero hindi magiging kayo. Ba't kaya? Dahil ba sobrang ma-L niya? Dahil masyadong nagbubuhay-binata? Eh kasi naman...

Meron pa akong isang surprise sa'yo. Pagdating mo ng 4th year. Sikretong malupit. Aawayin ka ni mommy dahil din sa surprise na yon. Pero iyon ang magbibigay sayo ng direction sa buhay para ipagpatuloy mo ang orig mo na pangarap.

Isa pa, sa 4th year. Dadating si Mr. Suplado-slash-trulab. Aynaku, maiinis ka talaga sa simula kase naman super NR. Pero sa totoo lang, siya na yon. Kinilig ka naman. Hahaha. Matalino din, pero wag mo naman pilitin mag-aral. Hindi talaga magbubuklat ng libro yan. Pero sobrang talino. As in. Matigas din ulo nun. Kaya cool ka lang Nikki, wag mo pilitin ang hindi pwede sa kanya. Medyo seloso sa oras, kaya siguraduhin mo na pantay ang time mo. Hah.

Hindi magwo-work out ang SK the way you expected it to be. Period.

Dadaan ang family sa isang eye-opener. As in. Malalaman natin lahat kung sino ang tsismoso't tsismosa, totoo't hindi, na mga kapitbahay. Babaw ba? Hindi ano. Hahaha. Sige lang, tawa lang. Hindi naman nakakatawa. Sige, tataba ka. Hindi nga, tataba ka nga. At tawa din lang si Mr. Suplado-slash-trulab. Maganda ka pa din naman maski may bilbil ka, at love ka pa din daw niya. So ano naman ang taba daw, di ba? (jackpot!)

Hindi ka din mgnunursing. Kaya easy ka lang. Yay.

Sa ngayon at sinusulat ko eto ay may hinahabol akong MPI. Ano ang MPI? Neknek. Malalaman mo din yon. Basta, kelangan habulin. Payat na ulit ako ngayon, pero ganun pa din. Malakas lumapang, pero hindi na tumataba. Congrats. Malapit na din ako maglunch. Ayoko talagang magterminal break muna. Magpapaka-good muna ako. Malalaman mo tlaga lahat ng pinagsasabi ko pagdating mo ng dinedeny kong age na twenteen. Lapit na uwian. Magbebreak ka muna sa "pantry" (ohmygad, halungkat ng dictionary, DALI!!! Dahil ang pantry dito ay hindi pantry kundi CANTEEN.. dapat na talaga makabasa ng dictionary ang nagma-manage ng canteen.. Lintek). Paguwi mo ay inaantay ka ni Mr. Suplado-slash-trulab sa PC shop. Surprise ulet. Hahaha. Pero dunwure, semi-legal na kayo, at ililibre ka niya ng PC para maglaro ng Mafioso. Hebi ba? Hahaha, isa sa mga paborito mong games yun. Kasama na ang Rohan. Ran. Flyff. BI sa laro si Mr. Suplado-slash-trulab. Hahaha. At biruin mo ha, ang pinaka-nakakaintrigang larong MAGIC eh siya din ang makakapagturo sayo nun. Bumongga pa.

Sinasabi ko sayo to para may aware ka sa mga maeexpect mo in the future. Hindi lahat maganda, pero hindi naman lahat pangit. Magkakaroon ka ng mga kaibigan at mawawala din, pero may mga talagang tatagal. Hindi magiging madali ang buhay, ngunit hindi din naman magiging mahirap. Easy ka lang. Kung kelangan mo umiyak, go lang. Pero tawa lang, ngiti lang. Masaya ang buhay Nikki. Kaya't habang bata ka pa, ienjoy mo buhay mo.♥

...as in very..

i'm very much excited to go to school.


it is, after all, may already.


and yet, i need prioritization, still. i dunno if i'll get the scholarship or the job.


one thing yet is certain, i don't want to be an agent forever. as foundation trainer bea petines quipped, "who wants to take calls forever? we may have or get personal growth in working in a contact center, but would you like to answer the phone every second of your life?

i don't.


i know that there is a great possibility that i am molded for public service; a great part of me is ideally made for the kind of calling wherein you get yourself happy just for making people happy in their own ways possible. but i'd like to pursue that in the field of actually getting to interact with the people, face to face, empathizing with the real thing and not just a voice on the other line. i want to be a journalist to hear both sides of the story and make people listen to both ways.



love the world.
~*princessa

*stressed*

i have been working for 2 months now.

i thought that being back in xbox would be a benefit. unfortunately, whatever were they thinking when they put me in the poorest LOB.

i already got 2 commendation calls, 1 IR and so many QMs not even reaching the minimum BOE score of 3. so what's the point of making good.


i now have tension headache and a bad diet. i never gain weight anymore.


but i've been 24k richer.


are there any benefits? hmm, that i dunno yet. but if they want to give me the boot anytime, i'm okay with that. i am, after all, tired.




as in very.



love the world.
~*princessa

*hot and cold*

i'm wasted to highest level.


i want my sanity back.
well, at least for the meantime. i feel sick lately din xc eh. and even if i'm busy to the neck, i feel like a bum. grose.


anyways, hahaha. anything to laugh about? mygad. i don't think so. i'm so0o0o0o0o exhausted tlga.


anyways, i like this hot and cold by katy perry.ü

Hot N Cold.wma -



and once again, i love robbie.. hehe :D



~*princessa

*sniff*

i am CRYING..
eyes are sooo watery. darn it.
and yes, RED.





darn this COLD!!! the uncontrollable sniffles and the unstoppable sneezing is such a pain to my system.. darn it!! argh.




anyways, i'm excited as per pre-documentary preparations. hope it'll work out great.



i lurve robbie. haha :D


love the world.
~*princessa

*end of 2008-start of 2009*

the day we made history, supposedly

november 26, 2008. educ day. oh my gad. don't ask. i sang tomorrow for my talent number. it was kalat-izing at the same time, breaking the mold. ayloveet. didn't exactly win, but i was best in talent, and highest in Q&A.

now that's more like it.ü


NCO holiday ramp

well, i made it, undoubtedly. from december 14-january 2, i had the time of my life as a CSR for XBOX live. so bongga. and amazingly, i had my own best friend in the process, pam.ü

team tai. forever. haha

amazing that i got to love the team for the unity and camaraderie that you can never find anywhere. such marvelous people. sobra.ü


legalities.üÜ

and oh my gad, for 2-years-and-4-months i have long awaited for the the day. and so, yes, we are oh-so-legal.ü


cake issues.. hmm..

"you know i find it impractical to buy a cake and have no allowance for the next day eh."

bad ka. look who's talking. tsk tsk. i'll kel you tlga. hmf.




due to public demand, here i am, blogging. AGAIN. thank gawd.





love the world.
~*princessa